Here’s how fucked up my brain is sometimes. I often check my pulse as a precautionary, just to make sure everything is consistent. When I’m feeling a rush, I want to see if it’s elevated. It’s a way of monitoring. I checked while I was cleaning some dishes, just to see if it was increasing and it hadn’t. I just checked my blood pressure a few times. The first time it was 119/90, then 128/87, then 127/89. My pulse was 79 on all three. My pulse is normally 79-88 at rest, but when I’m moving around it’s normally 90-110 depending on what I’m doing. Well my 79 wasn’t at rest, so I freaked out. I freaked out that something was wrong because they weren’t as high. Three – four months ago it was consistently 130/90 (at rest) – 145/96. Right before Thanksgiving, I had a couple of spikes of 160/109, but I was really anxious during that episode. From that point on I would check my BP sometimes. I didn’t for a couple of months. I checked a couple of days ago and the numbers were similar to todays.
This was all prompted by a centralized heartburn feeling in my mid-upper back. Panic Pete was back.